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    Raging at everything Raging, Raging, Raging. Writing too much- the pages are being used up too fast.

                  AND WHO AM I FUCKING WRITING THIS FOR?

    Destruction or Battle? --If I hate it I do not touch it. my Body is better than my mind my mind should belong in a penniless, homeless --------- . But my body is a slave to my mind, it deserves better than this  . 

    I am not my body, but I thank & love my body that it is housing me.

I made a really good decision today. I called Yacoub


   Things I did not say to Scott tonight:
I'm hurting & I'm scared