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I've questioned the thought "Being around Johnny makes me uneasy" &found that the following is truer than the original:
1. Being around myself makes me uneasy
2. Being around me doesn't make me uneasy and most especially
3. Being around Johnny puts me at ease because I know how he will react, I know exactly how to make him mad etc. I know all his rules. Being at east around Johnny makes me feel like my home is everywhere & anywhere I want to go is home It makes me more relaxed. the only thing I don't know now because I 've ever succeeded at it is how to punish Johnny- every time I've tried I've only made my mom cry & my living situation difficult. -And that's all I'd really wanted at him was to punish him- for lots of reasons which I'll eventually question. And now that I see all I've